When I returned home from this morningās run, Jilly asked how far I ran.
āIām not quite sure,ā I told her. āI ran through the woods for about an hour and fifteen minutes, so thatās maybe six or seven miles, but I donāt know for sure.ā
She didnāt quite understand why I would run if I wasnāt paying attention to how far I ran.
I think all of this boils down to the phase of life Iām currently in. Iām getting older and Iām okay with that. Iām not chasing paces anymore. Iām not chasing mileage volume. Iām not putting pressure on myself to progress at all costs. I donāt get upset if life gets busy and I donāt have time for my daily run. There are no ultramarathons on my docket.
Things are different now.
These days Iām chasing experiences ā I want a unique one with each outing, and thatās only possible if I am fully present during each outing. These days Iām chasing future experiences and a level of fitness that will keep me on this planet for a bit longer so someday in the not-too-distant future I can be active with my grandkids.
Thatās a different kind of ultra, but itās the one Iām training for these days.
Bingo. This is me, in every area of my life lately.
This morning, I went for a walk immediately after finishing my burpees. I had my Apple Watch on, and it buzzed, letting me know that thereās been a change in my health activity.
I honest-to-god snort laughed, then immediately took my watch off and moved on with my walk.1 Of course thereās been a change, I didnāt need my watch to tell me that.
Being present is super hard, especially with the internet doing everything it can to draw me towards it. But thanks to myself skipping the internet today, I got the third corner of my garage cleaned! Only one more to go before I can really start making this area dope as hell.2
Another related observation: an interesting side effect of my desire to collect new music means that each new album has the potential to serve as the background track to this current moment in life.
There are many albums which point me to general moments in my life, not so much specific memories.
If I want to remember what it felt like to drive home from a midnight truck at Best Buy, I pop on The Presetsā Apocalypto.
If I want to remember what it felt like in the early days of dating Shanny, Iāll listen to Ombarrops by The Car is On Fire.
Itās kind of cool to see the intersection and synergy of my two collections.