Iād like to offer a tool to put in your emergency kit for shifting self-sabotage to self-care and going from overcommitted to well-resourced. And that is managing for whole capacityārather than simply time or money. In other words, donāt ask, āCan I squeeze this in?ā when presented with an opportunity. Ask, āDo I have what I need to do this well?ā
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Seidel went to Eugene in late June, during the U.S. Outdoor Track and Field Championships, for what is known as team processing, an administrative session to prepare athletes for international competition. They fill out paperwork and get sized for uniforms. And, new in 2021, athletes undergo a mental health screening.
Seidel answered the questions on the screener honestlyāand her responses raised red flags. The U.S. Olympic and Paralympic Committee (USOPC) doctors, who administer the screening, referred her for treatment.
A USOPC spokesperson wrote in an email to Runnerās World that the test screens for anxiety, depression, eating disorders, drug and alcohol abuse, and sleep disorders, among other things. The results athletes provide are then flagged for follow up by a USOPC licensed mental health provider. From there, the athletes are connected to mental health resources.
āThe screenings are not intended to screen athletes out of competition or off Team USA, but are a part of a broad approach to intervene and provide support to athletes who struggle with mental health, so they are able to achieve their goals,ā the spokesperson wrote.
Seidel said she was connected with a new team of specialists, many in Salt Lake City. āUSOPC set up everything for me and theyāre continuing treatment for me,ā she said. āHonestly it was so much easier being able to have them take the reins on it. And feel very much like, āOkay, theyāre going to help me out on this.āā
I recall sitting with my therapist for the first time during my big depressive episode in 2021. I hadnāt said a word yet, and I started welling up almost immediately.
āI have no idea why Iām crying,ā I said to her. I hadnāt even explained why I was there.
āItās probably because you are feeling relief,ā she said.
She was completely right. I hadnāt really appreciated the need to unload your trauma and to allow someone to help you unpack and sort through your anxieties.
Iād still say that 99% of the tears Iāve shed in the past three years came after being vulnerable and letting others help me.
I felt those same tears well up when reading this piece about Molly Siedel, particularly the section in the pull quote above.
Say what you will about our Olympic committee: this policy is a walk off home run. Kudos to them for offering help, and mega kudos to Molly for being strong enough to take it.
Iāve had the fortune of getting to hang around several Olympians, and hearing them share stories of the pressures they face is incredible. Iām glad they have an opportunity to get relief when they need it.
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Moving your body, even a bit, has enormous benefits ā again to almost all people towards reducing the probability and severity of almost all diseases. So can you imagine the benefit of moving your body for several hours per day in a natural environment, and including heavy load bearing and bits of extreme exertion?
These things are not speculative pieces of alternative medicine. They are known, easily and reproducibly tested, and proven to be the most effective things we can possibly do with our time.
So why, the actual fuck, are people still sitting inside, watching Netflix, driving to work, and then driving to the doctorās office to get deeper and deeper analysis of a neverending series of exotic and mysterious and unsolvable problems with their physical and mental health?
Okay, okay, this got me to put the book on hold at the library.
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What I find is that those who lean too much into this logic of optimization are the ones that suffer from a (literal) maddening degree of alienation.
Itās an easy trap to fall into as it is so veryĀ sensible: Why would you spend six hours cleaning (doing a chore you hate and doing it badly) if you could just work an additional hour and outsource that? So you hire a cleaner. And a cook, a personal shopper, an interior designer and a nanny. But if you donāt watch out, all your little self worth eggs, so to speak, are kept in the same work basket ā and, step by step, you start to live the life of a stranger. You eat the food of someone else, wear the clothes of not-you, in an apartment that might as well be a hotel room, with kids that are more attached to their nanny than to you. Your vacations are glamorous, but thereās little connection to anyone or anything in them.
At this point you might start to feel a little unease. You might start to wonder why youāre unfulfilled and try to treat yourself better ā so you double down. You get a PA because dealing with a schedule is annoying, you get a personal trainer becauseĀ mens sana in corpore sano and while youāre at it, you also start therapy, where you learn techniques that help somewhat and where you analyze childhood events. But what somehow is kept at bay, in a fish-not-having-a-word-for-water-way, is that you identify with your job of optimizing processes to maximum efficiency to a degree that you treat yourself like any work project.
Boy, this pull quote within the bigger article here really struck a nerve.
Fortunately, Iāve been trying hard to not always make the optimaly decision lately. Itās tough to break the habit, but āgood enoughā often is just that.
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"You become more resilient, and your body learns that the anxiety and stress isn't needed because there is no threat to losing anything when there's always more ways to gain what you want or need," says Papetti. "The only thing that's certain in life is uncertainty, so embodying an abundance mindset that trusts you'll be safe in the uncertainty is the secret to living a life of greater gratitude, ease, and satisfaction."Ā
Great advice in here for helping you to adjust your mindset. The journaling tip and the celebrating the wins of others tip are resonating with me as of late.
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I anticipated navigating other challenges, like how to deal with the cognitive dissonance of working for big tech. Could someone who worked for big tech use a flip phone? Yet I liked the idea, argued by Hari, Williams, and Newport, that we need to be aware of technologyās designs and ensure that tech is working for us rather than against us. I didnāt want to throw the baby out with the bathwater when it comes to technical innovations, but I grew increasingly skeptical that my smartphone was working for me.
This whole article combines many disparate sources (like Cal Newport's Digital Minimalism and Rolf Dobelli's Stop Reading the News) into a cohesive manifesto for why we should stand up and reclaim our collective attention spans.
It actually motivated me to take some action.
Last night, I went through every app on my phone and deleted the ones I no longer use. I wasn't too picky though; if I had even a slight inkling that I might need it in the future, I kept it.
I went from 314 apps to 133.
133 still seems like too much to me, but just imagine the cognitive and infrastructural burden that 181 apps was inflicting on me and my phone!
All that wasted bandwidth to download updates.
All those wasted notifications attempting to get me to come back in.
My home screen went from this:
to this:
It's step one of being intentional with my technology, which is subsequently the first step towards getting my attention back.
Comparing these two screen shots is making me excited to make more cuts. Some of these apps will go away after we wrap up with a client project in the next couple weeks (like Teams and Protect) or when I finish up physical therapy (like Medbridge Go).
Others (like Untappd or MN Beer) are ones that don't really need a front page billing all the time in my life.
More cuts to come in the weeks ahead, to be sure!
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While travel does expand and stretch the horizons of what we know about the world, it is not the answer weāre looking for in times of unrest. To strengthen the health of the mind, the venue to do that in is the one we are in now.
It is location-independent, and always will be.
The key is not to discard The Box of Daily Experience and find a new oneāāāitās to warmly embrace the one that we have nowāāāwith its joys, its flaws, and everything in between.
Iāve definitely fallen prey to the use of vacation as a substitute for facing my own problems.
This article (complete with cute illustrations) serves as a great reminder that value can be derived from the monotony of our daily lives.
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We manic worriers need not sarcasm but supportive and intelligent company to give us the love we need to dare to look back at the past ā and the insight with which to try to do so. Our feeling of dread is a symptom of an ancient sorrow that hasnāt found its target in the here and now; and our ongoing quest and alarm is a sign that we keep not finding anything in the outer world that answers to the horror of the inner one.
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Last night, I posted an article here called āEveryone needs to grow up.ā
I shared it because Iāve personally felt drawn to āchildishā things lately, and Iām personally trying to make sense of itā¦ How do you find a balance between serious adult responsibilities (raising a family, managing a team, etc.) and needing a break from that?
A good friend saw that post and sent me this article, which acts as a great counterpoint. (He may be the only reader of this blog, honestly.)
Iām of the opinion that the only way to be an adult is to be willing to meet people where they are and care for them in the way they want to be cared for. It is about setting healthy boundaries; it is about knowing who you are and what you, yourself, can do and can handle. It is about planning for the long-term.
The concept of knowing who I am is absolutely top of mind lately. My wife and I have been considering our own individual values and discussing how those mesh, mostly as a way to understand what we want to instill in our children, but also to figure out who we are as individuals.
One thing Iāve realized while undergoing this thought experiment is that I feel like Iāve spent a lot of my life suppressing who I am as a way to maintain neutrality and not rock the boat.
An example: I really like using ābig wordsā. I find it hard sometimes to express my thoughts, and it makes me happy when I find a new word which poignantly expresses a thought. But then I often avoid using those words because I donāt want to be seen as aloof or pretentious.
Anyway, I think some people are really in tune with who they are and are unafraid to show that to the world. Being an adult, for me, is finding a way to be comfortable with who I am and not ashamed of it.
I donāt think people are adult babies now, at least not offline. Although I do think itās maybe harder than ever to be an adult. The traditional markers of transitioning through life-stages are evaporating; basically all thatās left to guide you are bills and literature. The structures that created our modern idea of adulthood have collapsed ā which is to say governments arenāt subsidizing things like homeownership like they did after the Second World War ā and itās easy to feel adrift.
Boy, aināt that the truth. We have a playbook for life all the way up through high school. From there, itās a boot out of the nest, and it is up to us individually to figure out how to adult.
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There is no reassurance and no final verdict. There might be a next life, there might be a remade world in which none of this matters, but it is also quite possible that such places will have no need for art or philosophy, though I do find it hard to imagine a fleshly paradise without dancing. For us, right here, thereās only the work and the living, and making space for it, or not.
A real bummer for you this evening, and for that, I apologize.
I think a big part of growing up and dealing with anxiety and depression is figuring out how to deal with these simple, indifferent truths.
And I guess this evening, itās hitting me a little harder than Iād like to admit to you, dear anonymous reader.
But I guess in some ways, it makes me happy to know Iāve made a few peopleās lives a little less stressful this week through my work, and Iām planning on spending my next few days (through this 18ā snow storm weāre expected to have) with my wife and kids, which also makes me a little more happy too.
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